I may have over done it today. getting up at 8am to go bike riding with Ken at 9am. Then lots of coffee and some games. I have mainly been watching black books though. I did a little bit of drawing and painting. It's surprising how attracted my eyes are to green on red. Using very vibrant green it shows up however with my red-green color blindness it is also hidden, creating this vague effect like a blurring around the edges. It feels most like it is under the cloaking field that Douglas Adams invented. But that's just today. Heaps more has happened since my last post.
Recently I picked up a book called The Artist's Way. Although heavily Christian, despite declaring that it is not, it has excellent regimes to follow for reviving the creativity that often gets crushed living in this cruel world. I have been writing for about 1/2 an hour every morning about anything that comes to mind. Sadly this has been mostly filled with recent event scribblings like a diary. It will begin however to progress into more fantastical reference points or complete nonsense, either is fine with me - as long as it's not boring. There are numerous other exercises which I will read about. I need to go find it again in the Library.
Searching for jobs is so tedious. The advertisements need some sort of management level language deciphering. It takes about 5 minutes to read each one in my head with a comprehension of about 20% by the end of it. I mostly just read the title and check for 'required: 1 billion years experience'.
I went to my aunt's place for the weekend while it was still school holidays. We had epic fun and I got away from internet and tv for a few days. I tried doing that here and made it until about 4pm before I gave up. I was also depriving myself of coffee at the same time and I didn't eat anything after 2130 the night before so my liver could work on cleaning my blood during the night and I could fall asleep by around 2330 and wake up at 7-730. Didn't work. Will try again some other time. Anyway at my aunt's place I did a lot of reading and painting. It was so relaxing. I hope I can bring some of that state of mind back with me.
I'm going to mess with my mate's head next time we go for drinks and order something completely different like house wine or spirits mixed with soft drink. He'll never expect it.
I'm back up to 2k kgs after a bit of a slump in my go playing abilities. It was a huge help once again to play blitz games and to have someone else compliment me on my playing. That's something I need to work on in real life. Compliments are a very nice thing to dish out, but I rarely give them because by the time I've analyzed all the possible bad connotations it might have if I remark on an item of clothing or a hairstyle or jewelery the moment will have passed. Is it a bad thing to compliment someone who is older or more powerful in some way, such that they might construe it to be meaningless pandering? Or what about if it's too girly for me to say? Honestly I would rather not mind and say it regardless, however manliness is a huge thing in a lot of people's minds. Messing with their conceptions is not recommended. I need a lot of practice and maybe some confidence.
I forgot to mention all the other stuff that has kind of turned into a background thrumm of activity. I've been playing SC2 a lot and it's gotten quite boring. I want to learn to play better as the other two races, protoss and terran but it's easy to get into a rut with them. With zerg there is always something that needs to be done. p and t just waits around for most of the game, making inefficient / insignificant actions.
I rearranged my room. It is a lot more open now.
For a long time I thought about our systems of government and the effects of free trade and capitalism. This is me ricocheting off the Zeitgeist Movement movies. And essentially I think that it's one thing to delve into conspiracy theory talk with a lot of things that surely have factual evidence, but at the same time neglecting a lot of other important terms in the equation. A resource based economy is a great idea but it implies birth control through law and through contraceptives. This is not acceptable to many religious groups and how does a budding Venus Project city do trade with countries who have the resources that they need but need something in return. Inevitably that something will be money.
The gold standard was destroyed and people have been crying and complaining since, not ever fully understanding the underlying cause. As well as the spiritual implications behind the Zeitgeist Movement, a lot of the stuff about humans having so much in common with one another that they should learn to be able to see that spiritual side to every person and connect. It's a desirable ideal. Like the final words of Steven, the old worker in Hard Times, if we could only understand one another better. That would certainly make the world a better place. Unfortunately not everyone shares those same ideals. Many materialistic people or people driven by clear cut principles will disrespect mutual understanding so that they can live in the gap caused by hate and turmoil.
Enough talking about it. I will start going around in circles very soon. I think that it's not something worth dwelling on. It is better to acknowledge the possibility of a resource based economy and then do our best with what we have. The restrictions include the mindset of the elder generation. They have to be respected too. They are people and my views are not significantly better or worse than that of others. There is no proof of idea to be found. However there is important lessons to be learned. I already thought that I was a very considerate human being. I focused on problems and thought about them long and hard before coming up with any course of action. The decision would be balanced. However I was wrong in many of my decisions and they required re-thinking. Just like in statistics assumptions need to be double checked every time.
Take my words internet. Take them and do with them what you will.
